I'm back in London!
When I got into Euston I was so happy I nearly cried... I'm such a dumbass.
But work aren't giving me any shifts because business is bad, and they haven't paid me for the shifts I did before I left... so I'm in London with no money, so as usual I can't leave the house or buy anything, or indeed eat anything but pasta... So pretty much as usual.
Oh, everything was looking so good for a while there... I had a decent medium-term temping assignment and evening work, I was really getting stuff together. *sigh* And now it could be ages before I have work again. I obviously had to go home, but the timing sure could have been better.
I'm so sick of this. I just want a regular income that's enough so that I can have fun sometimes and put a bit away for a rainy day. But now I'm afraid to apply for things because I don't know when I'll be needed at home.
Although, Mum wants to have a go at managing without me there and see how it goes, so I'm in town for at least a couple of weeks, and I may only be going up at weekends. And she's encouraging me to apply for graduate jobs, so I guess she doesn't want to shake up my life too much...
So I'm doing that, but I'm not quite sure how I'm going to get to any potential job interviews without any money for transport. We'll see.

The silver lining in all this cloud is my friends. I've been so touched by how great everyone has been. Thank you all for your supportive comments, offers of cake etc! penguin2, thank you so much for being all wise and stuff, and for sending me lovely things! ladyvivien, you are an angel, thank you for all your calls!

Housemates are out tonight, so I'm going to try and spend the evening writing, since that's a part of my life I've been neglecting quite badly recently. I really want to get going with it again.
I'm certainly not going to do what I did last night, and resolve to spend the evening writing, and then instead eat peanuts and chocolate and watch the whole of Caves of Androzani, no sirree!